A Wing and a Prayer (My Life)
71Wing and a Prayer
Who I am
My life has always been on a wing and a prayer and through God's Grace I am able to share with you, who I really am and what drives me to be all that I can be. My life will help you understand who I am and why I choose to make the decisions that I make, or the comments that may unfold when it comes to judging others.
I have written a handful of articles on HubPages and today of all days, I thought it was time to tell you who I am , the woman behind the keyboard who enjoys helping others and sharing my thoughts. I am a E.R. Nurse, I am a mother and I am a wife. I have a strong love for the Lord and I am also open minded about others, thoughts, desires and lifestyles. I believe that everyone should be treated equal and nobody is better then someone else.
Being a defiant young woman and in college I refused to ask my parents for anything and in ended up on the streets in California among the darkness and evil that roams it. I have seen things that nobody could ever imagine, and was also witness to a murder in which the man who took the person's life ended up in prison for life and it still haunts me to this day. I have been raped and I have been beaten by an ex-husband and left for dead. Through it all I have kept my faith, my husband now is my rock and is amazed that through my life experiences it has not hardened me. Many of you may say God she must of being Naive and stupid , she was not cautious, I was young and therefore I was naive but I was far from being an idiot. I was in Mensa and I am actually quite intelligent and chose to make others feel comfortable around me, I have been told how beautiful I am but choose to believe that I am not any better then anyone else. The Avatar's resemblance to me, is almost dead on, which is eerie and for self-protected reasons due to the rape I choose to leave the Avatar the way it is, as who knows he may be reading my article now. Have I forgiven him yes and I have moved on as I know that God is their for me. I have been at the bottom and rose to the top and my faith will not falter or fail me. All of us have been through things in our lives but as a person who loves to write and I hope to publish my first book next year, I hope now that you will realize who I am, I am not a saint and I am not perfect, I am just like you , I am human, I love life and I love the Lord. I have gone through troubled times and I understand people's thoughts, feelings and emotions and I cannot judge others as I have walked in some of their shoes. I am not a snob, I am a giving caring person and I do know that God has a divine purpose for me, so sharing my life to you and expressing my thoughts has even made me a better person, for sharing with you who I am.
My Prayer
I have a prayer that I recite every morning and it was written by "Jack Piatt, I was able to actually meet him many years ago and he sent this prayer to me that he wrote which hangs in our hallway as a reminder of who God is to me.
To wake and say, "Good Morning God."
As you watched over me through the night, Please guide my thoughts and actions, thru this day keep me in sight.
I'll need your constant company, Less I feel so all alone. Please guide my every decision, for I can't make it on my own.
If I can do for one of yours and they not know my face, And say, "my Lord how lucky I am," Then will I know your grace,
When others paths look smoother and my neighbors load seems light And I feel no envy in my heart, my goal will be in sight.
Where I to quietly give to a stranger, Something I could not replace and did so in your name alone, I but sample of your grace.
My prayer's to help another, Though it wasn't on my way. And at evening say,"good night my Lord, I thank you for this say.
Written by Jack Piatt
If you have gone through tough times and you have felt like given up, put your faith and trust in him and he will get you through it. Just ask and you shall recieve.
copyright2008Aevans
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Hi Eddie, God convicted me to write it and I did, drawing back the curtain was and is frightening, because you will never know how people will react. I was brought up in a wonderful God fearing home and honestly didn't want for anything but I was such a rebellious little soul when I was young, I went through the school of hard knocks instead of paying attention. God has made me strong, humble and faithful. I have seen things that I did not want placed in front of me, but I do know God was showing me where my own life could have gone, if I didn't wake up andpay attention. I testified in the trial and the man who took another person's life, is behind bars for good and that was also a frightening thing as is eyes were balzing through my soul, but I know God was there. You don't have to think it is my own thoughts and I respect others thoughts as well, as God has been good to me. :)
I am glad God inspired you to write this. I know personally I need help each and every day to hold my tongue and look at things through the eyes of the Lord. Thank you for writing this.
SirDent, I am honored that you read it, I am a very strong person and very humbled as God has done that to me. I do not take life for granted and I love people for face value, I love my husband and my son unconditionally and am thankful that God has placed it on my heart to share with my friends on HubPages who I am. I am warm spiritual and thoughtful and I do not look down upon the poor,homeless or strangers and I am alwasy there to lending a helping hand. Sir Dent you are strong with the Lord and he has given you a gift, hold strong to your faith and you will be fine. God Bless :)
This was an incredible read. I think the whole point, the power of writing is to get to get as close to the darkness, the edge, and say, I have won. God puts us through some sh**, but I have come to understand that he wouldn't put me (or you) through it if he didn't think we would get back up and be a stronger person for it. Stay strong, and let those fingers bleed as you type out that book.
goldentoad, Thank you for inspiring me to continue on I have seen the gates of Hell and I God has prevailed, he has carried me through and for that I am so grateful. I am not hardened, I am not angry and I am still kind hearted, I however am stronger then I was before. I will type out that book and let you know how all goes. Happy Thanksgiving. :)
I personally know how hard it is to do what you have done here. I believe that God will reward you for it. God may be using your story right now to change the heart of someone. I know He has mysterious ways with our stories. I have seen it happen in my own life and you have encouraged me in a way you may never know with your story. Thank you for opening up to us this way.
God's Child, It was so hard to write but through the grace of God I did it, some may be shocked and some may embrace however what I do know is that it was time and I was lead. I am blessed and I am happy that I wrote it. Thanks for reading it and stopping by and I am glad that I encouraged you in a way I will never know, be strong and build your strength.:)
I don't know "What is human life?" and "What GOD gives us?" and "What GOD wants form us". But the truth is that human life is made of all things. I read all the lines. I feel good as you have much believe in GOD and HIS decision. Thanks GOD, who gives you enough passion to bear all things and come to us. To alls (all human), my request is that plz help and share each other at your best. Because it may make his or her life better or best. And lastly, I can tell that GOD must give you (AEvans) reward.
xtraTiny, I realize that some do not believe in God orquestionit and to me that isO.K. my own personal believe is fine, and sharing my experiences in my life has led me to a different level. God is good to me and I respect all as well who have other beliefs. :)
I thank you for this Hub...It chocked my up...We do have a wonderful creator
Yes we do, and thank you for reading it as I unveiled myself and for some reason I feel human and so much better. God Bless :)
Praise God! Praise God!! I know your Spirit!! They call me from Prison to Pastor!!! I have told my story all over the world! I thank God for people like you and me! It's not by mistake but by our TESTIMONIES!!!! That's why my CD and Book is Called BREAKOUT!!! AEvan you just brokeout!!!!! When you get time please go to my profile and click on my CD link and read a little about me, there you will see, I am just like you!!! I love you and your Spirit!!!! I love people!!! That's why I went to school for 7 years to be the best for Jesus!!!! A Pastor/Counselor! The enemy is a liar!!!!!!!!! lol We are overcomers in Jesus Christ!!! In my book I worte and it was Published Feb. 2008 it tells how I was molested, rape and posituted by body out!! But God has his hand over us AEvans, watch Him work!!! I am on fire for Jesus!!!!! He saved me!!!! and You Too!!!! Praise God!!!!!! I Love you girl!!!! And Jesus does too!!!!
drpastorcarlotta, I have never been pimped and I have never been to prison Thank God , but I have walked on the edge had a man sent to prison and ended up in a bad marriage at the very beginning. But God has been good to me and I am blessed to be able to speak about my life and felt it was time to share it with my fans, as it is only right that they understand who I am. God Bless !!:)
Awesome story, if there was more I would like to read more. Have a blessed day.
jenster, There is more and I am writing about my life , it will be on e-book next year and it will be much more detailed.:)
Brave and written with an open heart. I too, would love to read to more. I'm certain that your book will do very well. Thx.
Thank you for your support and I am glad that you took the time to read.:)
Thank you for sharing with us. I'm sure it wasn't an easy thing to do. I can relate to some of the things you said. Your a brave girl!
Netters, You are welcome as it was hard but I was convicted to do it, and I am glad that you took time to read it. :)
Based on the following verses:
The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.
For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that He might destroy the works of the devil.
So the great dragon was cast out, that serpent of old, called the Devil and Satan,
Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
Based on these verses .... I name you Dragon Slayer
BDazzler, I see the Lord writtten through your entire comment and I see he has spoken, I am truly blessed and Thank you .:)
From where I stand it takes a brave soul to share hardships as you have. We all are works in progress. Maybe one day I will be able to open up like you but for now me and my characters share our stories through the arts.
"Life is fragile.... we all are fighting a battle within. You AmAzE our World.
diggerstory, Sharing your life through Arts is an amazing accomplishment as many express themselves through different forms. It takes time to open up and sharing my life has not happened overnite, so thanking you for reading. :)
diggerstory, Sharing your life through Arts is an amazing accomplishment as many express themselves through different forms. It takes time to open up and sharing my life has not happened overnite, so thanking you for reading. :)
Hi AEvans, your sharing has touched me. And the most beautiful thing of it all is that you have chosen the better path. Instead of being bitter, you have come out of it (through God's amazing grace) strong, kind hearted and loving than ever. May His love continue to lift you up always. :)
-Michelle
ripplemaker, Thank you for stopping by as I could not be bitter as God saved me from that, and when I look in the mirror everyday I give thanks. There are those that chosse to be bitter and angry after something bad happens to them and it reflect it in there face and mannerisms, I did not want to be like that I wanted to come out strong so that I could share with others, that we can survive and theiris a God who loves us. Thank you for commeting and God Bless!!!
You have a powerful testimony - I pray that as you share it you will save others from following in your footsteps before experiencing God's grace. I look forward to your book :)
PetMemorialWorld: I pray that as well each and everyday, it hurts my heart when some become statistics , I just wish they would listen as Love should not hurt. ::::::(
Wow, that's a really amazing story. Thanks for being willing to share your life. You are an encouragement to me.
Benjimester: I believed if I could share who I was and what I had been through I would be able to inspire others and make them realize how important they are to themselves and others. Although life gives to many of us an obstacle course through the most troublesome times God gets us through it and we rise to the top.I am glad that I was able to encourage you to express yourself. :)
This is such a very beautiful and heartfelt piece. I especially love the beautiful poem you have at the end. One thing I do know is true from my own life experiences with difficulties in life, a prayer does help. I admire the fact that you could remain strong within throughout your turmoil. It takes a lot of courage to do it with all you went through.
Kiki: I remain strong as God lifts me, and we are now battling again however God will get us through the storm. :) Although I may tumble and fall like a small child, he is always their for us. It is hard to put your life out there however I want to let others know that they are not alone, as we can weather any storm with God on our side. :)
AEvans, I love your prayer...it gave me goosebumps. I need to learn this and say it daily...It is beautiful! Thank you for being who you are...your patients must love you! Thanks for the hub!!
k@ri: You are so welcome and although this article is older, I have now placed my real self out there for the entire world to see as I cannot and will not live in fear for anyone. I am glad that you enjoyed the hub.:)
Oh A.Evans I had no idea before of the things you have been thorugh as you too would have had no idea of what I had been through if I had not told you.So is this pic of you a real one or a avatar.It does not matter to me anyway as the person I have come to know which is inside you is the most beautiful person in my eyes.
I feel for you so much what you have gone through, my heart is so sad to hear the horrible heart-wrenching things you have gone through.Yes indeed you are strong. You are a walking testament of love and sunshine. Out of so many hubbers you drew me to you and I hope our friendship is forever lasting.
The pic that you see now is me, as I came out of hiding , our friendship will be forever lasting, as you are a rosebud that has bloomed into a rose. :)
This was written awhile back when I had a cartoon like avatar, which resembles me now. :)
Wow, AEvans. What a Hub. It was so refreshing to read something written straight from the heart, no pretenses, no BS. Nicely done. I feel like i know my neighbor that much better now!
MotherHubber: No pretenses and straight from the heart, it is me and my life.:)
Absolutely Beautiful Poem!!! Thank you for sharing your story, what an inspiration you are! God has molded you in such a way to be a guiding light for others. So glad your vessel is filled with Him! Many Blessings to you!!! Peace ~ K
Kim Garcia: I certainly try each and everyday sometimes it is so hard but he continues to guide me. I don't know if I am inspiration but I certainly try to be the best that I can be.:)
Hi,
Thanks for sharing. God is there for us. Amen.
What's your book and do you know when it will be out?
Praise the Lord,
believeinhim
beleivein him: I certainly do know the book and I know it will be out Winter 2010. I will give you the information once I speak to my publisher. I am glad you read and God certainly is there for us. :)
Thank you for sharing that as well. Still wiping tears from your last Hub though. I have seen my share of horrors but you are right, God is always there, if you believe.
kysnoopyq42: You certainly do just have to believe. :)
Of all the things you have written that I have read I liked this one the best. Because You talked about you and what you think, and why. Then you quickly reverted back to what they think and why, but hey I'll cut you some slack....but I have to say... Your such a 'Christian'.
I Love your work, I love your heart, I like you, Mikel
(p.s. I'm sooo not a stalker, you have nothing to fear from me)
Mikel: It is rare that others will share there experiences hiding behind a avatar and painting a picture that is not reality. I have lived a life that many could not imagine, I have suffered, endured pain, being harmed and still I am thankful for the gift that God has given everyday. Sometimes I get mad because I think he is not listening but I also know he has so many prayers to answer I just have to be patient. I know you are not a stalker and I am glad that you again now know who I truly am. If someone ever believed I would hurt there feelings intentionally they are wrong, if I have came across as brash I am happy when others point out my error, I do not get upset read what I have written and always apologize if I have made a mistake that is what Jesus would do. I love my Lord and Savior more then I can explain and I am so glad that I know him, he is the one that has saved me so many times and that I am thankful for. :)
AEvans, this moment is one of my few moments of feeling so alone and lonely. As I checked my HubPages profile I see your fan mail and lazily clicked it here. I know God has led me here and for a purpose.
I'm crying as I read this honest account of your past. You are so right, God is always at our side. Here I am, not knowing who really I am and why I have to be alone after my husband of 23 years died 11 years ago this November.
You make me strong today, for the outlook in life that you have embraced after your dark trials. Thank you for sharing this to us. God Bless you, my Dear Friend.
Eddie Perkins 3 years ago
AEvans,
One thing I know, we all need to walk in each others shoes. How little we know of others and it is even worse online.
Thank you for drawing back the curtain of your past. Hopefully that will help all of us to think twice before responding to something you or anyone else writes. ~ eddie